Mar 14, 2021Member-onlyMy Dad Died And I’m Trying to Figure Out How To LiveThis is all about me but it might help you too! — My Dad died 6 months ago. He had Oesophagul cancer and cruelly starved to death — an emaciated, painful release. I sat beside him, witnessing, comforting, holding space for him to let go, leave. It was a stoic death. He was brave. It’s now my turn to be brave. I’m…Death And Dying4 min read
Dec 8, 2020Member-onlySitting With My Dying DadHe helped me come into the world — I’m helping him to leave — I sit beside his bed, watching, waiting. I’m his firstborn, only daughter. Our bond, unshakeable, immense, complex. “No-one loves me as much as you, Dad”. “Yes…that's true”. He says I was difficult at times. I would stand up and shake the bars of my cot until I received his attention…Death And Dying2 min read
Nov 1, 2020Member-onlyDoes Life Scare You?Some things to remember when you’re feeling terrified of failure — I recently had a conversation with my 21-year-old daughter. She’s a 2nd-year student studying animation. It’s tough. Much more technical than she anticipated and being a perfectionist, she struggles with not receiving top marks. Her dream is to be involved in the film industry and a degree in animation is…Fear Of Failure5 min read
Nov 1, 2020Member-onlyI’m OK To Be AloneAre You? — Life1 min readSasha Freemind on UnsplashI’m OK To Be AloneAre You?----
Nov 1, 2020Member-onlyWhat joining and leaving the Mormon Church taught me about myself.Sometimes we aren’t who we think we are! I married a Mormon when I was 22. “We can’t be together unless you join the church”. My father cried and told me the man I was about to marry was ‘The Devil’. I was in love. I got baptised. We eloped. …Life3 min read
Jan 8, 2020Member-onlyNo Thanks, I Don’t Want To Go To A Botox Party.Is it really ok to temporarily paralyse facial muscles to look younger? — I recently received an online invitation to a Botox Party. ‘Botox and Bubbles’ it read. On it was outlined some of the procedures that I could receive from a ‘licensed professional’ whilst I drank champagne and ate hors-d’oeuvres. Botox? And at a party with alcohol? Maybe I’m old school or…Beauty4 min read
Jul 18, 2019Member-onlyPainWhat Relentless Toothache Is Teaching Me About Pain — I need a root canal. Badly. For the past six months, I’ve been favouring one of my bottom left molars. Intense searing pain drills into my brain if anything hot or cold touches it. Or if I inadvertently chew on it. It throbs at night. ALL night. I’m existing on…Health4 min read
Jul 4, 2019Member-only“Sorry, I Don’t Do Happy Endings.”It happened AGAIN! I received a voicemail regarding a massage. I called him back. He asked about price, possible times. He sounded friendly. I told him I offer mobile only and can come to him at the hotel he’s staying at. It’s a small ski resort town. He said he’d…Massage5 min read
Jun 3, 2019Member-onlyWhat Is Menopause Doing To My Body?!I used to know my body. I appreciated it’s cycles, it’s rhythms, it’s predictability. I knew when I was ovulating — a deep ache in my lower groin. I’d feel aroused. I had a monthly period, it was always on time, ‘regular’, light. …Menopause9 min read
May 17, 2019Member-onlyWhat I Learned From Massaging An Obese WomanI’ve massaged lots of overweight people, but she was obese. As she stood in front of me, I met her eyes and searched in my heart for the openness and acceptance I’d need for this massage. I wanted her to feel safe. But I was freaking out! Would the massage…Body Image4 min read
